i found myself lost... once more... how could it be, that after all this time... subconsciously, im still thinking about him? he's there... lingering in the shadows of my thought... waiting for the right moment to rear his ugly, yet... so angelic face in my predicament... oh, am i cursed? to forever hold on to his memory, that i in the first place have absolutely no business of holding on to? as time immemorial has proven... you are not over this kid... until you get closure. confrontation has always been your herald of letting go... and, after all this time... you've been in denial all along, telling yourself that you're over him. and yet, at the slightest thought of him... you cringe, get weak in the knees, melt like jello, and you end up wanting to dial his home number to call him... how sad is it? that whenever you are reminded of him, you are incomplete... he's the one guy you can't land, and the one guy you want to land the most... but, with him, there's more to landing... with him, you are whole, not half... with you in his arms, lying safe with him... you are born again. but fate has never been so kind to let your paths cross once more... and once you do, what would you say? how would you act? hope for the best, prepare for the worst... never, yet again... this is the future of your past, present ever m0re... throw your heart out the window...
Friday, May 07, 2004
mAh prEvi0us p0sTs
- cold summer nights... (with Carrie's voice inside ...
- My bottom line (with Carrie's voice inside my head)
- untitled... (with Carrie's voice inside my head)
- cold summer nights... (with carrie's voice inside ...
- i wonder if anyone is even reading this stuff... i...
- last night, i had to write in my diary to remember...
- this is fucked up... most of my friends are either...
- school's about to end... still in deep shit with m...
- well... ain't this quaint... surfing somewhere els...
- it's been a long three weeks... and it ain't over ...
They say Divas have attitude... well, do I?
"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart.
You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you.
And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"
Carrie, thanks for this one...
"You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it."
she's just full of wonders, that miss Bradshaw... from her... "Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away."
another Carrie-ism... "Later that day I got to thinking about fairy tales. What if Prince Charming had never shown up? Would Snow White have laid in that glass box forever? Or would she have gotten up, spit out the apple, gotten a job and a health care plan and moved on with her life?"
Carrie speaks her mind... "While women are certainly no strangers to faking it - we've faked our hair color, cup size, hell, we've even faked fur. I couldn't help but wonder, has fear of being alone suddenly raised the bar on faking? Are we faking more than orgasms? Are we faking entire relationships? Is it better to fake it than be alone?"
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home