well.... how do you get over someone that you don't have to get over with 'cause nothin' did happen between you guys in the first place? hard, eh? and that's not a trick question... and, why, oh why can i just get that someone out of my head? but, new hope shines... another one comes along... meek, yet curious... he doesn't seem to be the type that'll hurt me... but... still, i hold my place... let his desires be mine that we may be one...

it's the weekend once again... time for some "me" time... just had an exhausting week... before the weekend, i had to work for 12 hours straight... now i know how it is to work in the real world. did some filming and a photo shoot. tiresome, but fun at the same time... now, it's time to rest...

my heart's in perfect condition right now! welll.... perfectly shattered that is! and wait... ehen he said thaT in the movie, what exactly diod he mean by that? i mean, what if he was a candidate for a hear attack? i know im speaking jibberish... but it's the only way i can make sense of the shitty shitty place that im in right now... invert the reality that is and find the answers there that you didn't have to look for in the first place... scusa...

now, this one's rich... i'm mad... no, drop that... i'm REALLY MAD!!! damn! i'm mad at a guy... a guy that's been haunting me for the better part of two years now... i know... sounds pathetic, eh? asking why i'm MAD at him? well, he hasn't really done anything... but that's just it! he's not doing anything! he's such a stupid, egotistical, conceited, self-centered bastard! a god damnned pain in the ass! that i just! i just... you know...

this one is sad... well... actually, it's so sad that i can't help but think it's kinda funny.... i've had quite a few guys in my life that come emotionally close to me... and yet... each and every one of those guys... i've just let them slip through my fingers.... and the saddest part is... if i'm right... not all straight men necessarily just leave gay men... they just leave... me...