i'll close my book on angels... and open my manual on saints...

now that i have you, everything just seems so right...now that i have you, i'm alive...
thank you for coming into my life, thank you for showing me that there's still hope left in my heart... thank you for making me believe in the magic of love once more... i may not have told you face to face... but, i do love you...
you are the song that i've been singing my whole life through...i'm living in a brighter world, now that i have you...
thank you for picking me up when the chips are down... just when i was so burned from someone else... thank you for taking me as i am, and not for who you wanted me to be... thank you for seeing me as myself, and not as you're idea of who i should be. i love you... and most of all... i'll remember, whenever i see you... that there's an infinite amount of love available to me, and i'll see it in you. i'll remember that everything i need i already have, and whatever i don't have will come to me when i'm ready to receive it...

you don't hold me anymore... i saw you're face and i don't give a rat's ass! but i just saw you last weekend, and i got so weak in the knees... but i swear, the next time i see you again... i'll walk right past you like nothing was there...

currently invoked mantras for the past week...

currently invoked mantras for the past week...
1. an upgraded version of my ohmyGOD moments: oh my F*cking GOD!!!
2. a rejoinder to a comment or conviction: actually...
3. to express awe or disbelief: ahy, really?
4. to greet invites or potential clientels (note that this is applicable any time of day): good morning, sir/ma'm!
5. to invite someone: it's some kind of a business thing...
6. 'nuff said for this one: ang pangit na n'ya oh! tingnan mo! ang pangit na n'ya! swear!

what is wrong with me? nothing ever sticks... i'm like teflon for gay relationships! after the string of bad relationships i had... i begin to wonder... am i the only person who is experiencing this? or are there other people out there who have the same problem that i have. and then i ask... how do you keep a relationship going when there's no relationship to keep?

i am under scrutiny lately... something that i never thought i'd be conscious about, especially if the scrutiny in question is coming from a person you dislike, or even hate. (but hate is such a strong word) there must be something wrong with the way that i present myself to acquire such a commentary. but with the comforting words of my friends, they have labelled his behavior to be neurosis. kudos to me!